Exhaustion and Imagination

As of late, I’ve been so focused on editing my story.  I usually hate editing, but this time around it has been a little more fun (probably thanks to knowing it will come out in print).  I cannot sugarcoat the lack of inspiration to write new pieces though. 

 For some authors, they are constantly writing. For others it comes in one massive overhaul, and then they are done.  I find myself somewhere in the middle. My writing is more like a lunar cycle, and right now I’m stuck in a new moon.

I know the future will be full of stories and Arthurian legend research, but until then I’m stuck in the phase of exhaustion (mentally and physically).  I try not to stress over it, but then my anxiety creeps in the night to remind me that time is slipping away. I’m 27, brain, not 100. Calm down. 

I just need to remind myself that tonight, a little crescent of inspiration will peak out of somewhere. And if I take the opportunity to write, great! And if I don’t? Not the end of the world. Just make it a goal for the next day. 

Eventually my full moon will come around, and the characters, just waiting for the adventure to continue, will come banging pots and pans in my head until I give them their due. 

Shall We Begin?

The journey I’m on feels like a strange one.  It is amazing, and it will have plenty of growing pains.  But it is the one I have wanted since 6th grade.  In 2019 Top Hat Society will be a published novel.

It is a bit like going through the 5 Stages of Grief, but I’d call mine The 5 Stages of Disbelief.

Denial – This can’t be happening.

Anger – How dare those bullies in high school tease and tear at my stories as if I weren’t a human being beneath those words?

Bargaining – I am going to have to give the devil my soul, aren’t I?

Depression –  Can I do this?  There will always be someone who hates my writing…do I have the skin for this game?

Acceptance – Yes, this is happening.  Yes, those kids at school were quite cruel.  But you are achieving your dream.  No, there is no devil soul exchange needed.  Your publisher is quite nice and down to earth.  And yes, you can do this.  Again, this is your dream. Not everyone is going to like it.  But your dream was to be published and provide an escape to readers just as you looked for in your novels.

So there it is for you! My first post at the start of a journey.  2018 will be full of new things.  So…shall we begin?

~E. M. Vick